http://wishiwasaduck.livejournal.com/ ChEcK iT oUt Or DiE! - LiveJournal.com Wed, 04 Aug 2004 05:15:04 GMT LiveJournal / LiveJournal.com wishiwasaduck 3880827 personal http://wishiwasaduck.livejournal.com/522.html Wed, 04 Aug 2004 05:15:04 GMT http://wishiwasaduck.livejournal.com/522.html alright so everything isn't as confusing.....my mind is pretty much set and everything is working out, except for dealing with steven. bleh!o well...im at anthony's store right now me and him have been walking alot today just talking and uh stuff, but yeah its been pretty nice. we saw some beavers come out of the water it was crazy! i thought they were mud bubbles! LoL! but yeahs, tomorrow morning i have dance, which sucks cuze i dont want to wake up at 6:00 a.m!!! bah! thats how my morning is gonna be wednesday,thursday,n friday! baaaaaaaaaaaaaah! i feel like a sheep just now..lol..anthony is getting frusterated with his game its kinda funny, LoL! right now whats going thorugh my mind is i really need to watch myself right now, more around anthony's parents. i need to make sure i dont fuck up (no me and anthony arent going out right now) but i need to prove myself i guess i could say and make his parents trust me again. im not to sure how im gonna manage that but i can sure as hell try, ya know?its gonna be pretty tough..wow i am sooo thirsty im gonna like drink a gallon of something when i get home ( i dont know what yet) this weekend vicky has to go visit her family that was just down here so im trying to see if she can stay with me instead cuze i know she doesn't want to go. my birthday is in 24 days! kick ass! LoL! mmkay well i dont have mmuch else to say besides hey everyone! bye everyone! lol adios n ciao! http://wishiwasaduck.livejournal.com/522.html anthem of our dying day by story of the year anthem of our dying day by story of the year indescribable public 0 http://wishiwasaduck.livejournal.com/468.html Tue, 03 Aug 2004 02:02:13 GMT http://wishiwasaduck.livejournal.com/468.html alrighty right now my emotions are like a rollercoaster it really sucks! i thought i was over my ex, that was a joke. for awhile i thought he was being a complete jerk, so thats also what everyone else thought/thinks of him. but now i realize that everyone makes mistakes,ya know? he admitted to me that he was being a complete asshole, and ya, he's right. he apologized god knows how many times, and i know everyone makes mistakes,he said that he said things that he didn't mean. inleast im hoping that he didn't mean all of the stuff he said. but ya so i thought i was over him, i was actually like 100% sure i was, and people said that once we broke up that they would slap me if i went back out with him. i dont know if i ever will go back out with him. bleh! and then there's steven *sigh* guy drama sucks biiiig monkey balls! steven is supposed to ask me out friday, and i was pretty sure i was gonna say yes, but im not to sure at this moment. there is only one other person right now who knows inleast a little bit of my emotions(i love u vicky!) yeah, steven makes me happy when im with him and what not,but when im alone or whatever i feel completely bleh! but it was different when i was anthony, i almost always felt good. it was really rare when i was down,and when i was down vicky n anthony were ALWAYS cheering me up. like today me and anthony are pretty much acting like we are going out there is definetely flirting theres no doubt about that, there's something going on in his mind right now, but he wont tell me, it really sucks. im getting the chills right now and im not even cold! ahhhhh! someone PLEASE help me! i dont know what to do right now. i wont go out with anthony for awhile(as far as i know) i feel so bad cuze now that i think about all the times that me and anthony broke up they were pretty much all for my own selfish reasons, now that i think about it....if he did ask me back out i might/probably say no, because he deserves better, ALOT better then me. he deserves someone who wont break his heart,like i did, a few times at that. whenever i look into his eyes i can tell that he still cares, if i dont see that then i must be blind,and im not. so now i am sitting in anthony's shop, thinking like CRAZY!!being confused as all hell about my emotions.bleh...drama drama..maybe if i was a guy, my emotions wouldnt be like this, and if i was a guy and they were like this then i would be one girly guy! LMAO! or i would just be one man whore or sprung guy off of his ass! LoL! whats funny is vikcy(kinda) and rachela are the only ones that read this as far as i know. so im hoping that rachela has some pretty good damn advice, if im not then im shit out of luck,as usual.hey this is vickylololololbye>>>>>>>lol vicky got bored..sooo..what else to type....i think another reason why me and anthony broke up(besides my own selfish reasons)is that i was expecting him to be perfect(i think) and i know that no one was perfect, and all couples argue, so i dont know why i made such a big deal about it. i was telling him to go out with this one chick, but when he goes out with someone else its gonna kill me, even if i dont want to admit it, it will. so now i know what he must of felt like when he saw me with steven...bleh....i think i could have tried harder, thats my honest opinion, whoever reads this, remind me in my next relationship(if i really really like the guy) to try harder and not be so hard on him,ok? it might save me from getting hurt i guess. bah! ok now that i think about it, im being kind of hard on myself,but o well.....maybe i deserve it maybe i dont. i guess its whatever floats my boat, haha that ryhmes. i cant wait till my computer works then i can finish my book(finally)ok well i guess i am going to finish up cuze i guess me,daniel,vicky,and anthony are walking to starbucks? maybe? i dont know!! ok that is a yes we are walking aoooo adios! ttyl! e mail me rbrduckie@sbcglobal.net if u have any adive for me okie dokie? i really need it right now. or IM me on aim warpt n twistd uhh or yahoo shadows_roze ! i am really confused right now even though thats easy but this is like driving me insane im about to cry(wow im weak) me being confused! ok uhmm so ya adios again! LoL! and ciao! oravuea or however the hell u spell it! sorry about this being so long http://wishiwasaduck.livejournal.com/468.html people talking in epicenter! LoL! nice music huh? people talking in epicenter! LoL! nice music huh? confused public 1